I'm on the cusp of completing my graduate career and it just hit me the pure terror born of endings and unsure beginnings. I hate having bosses, I hate waking up cause I "have to." but I do love order and purpose and I think completing these last three years of school has filled my need for order and purpose. Along with that goes growth and improvement. Now that school is over I head into a tailspin of worry about what comes next, or how do I ensure I continue to have meaning, direction, purpose and order without .............school?
Let me know if this sounds crazy. My peers already have jobs and are talking about how excited they are to make money. Why do they care about making money? What does money have to do with order, purpose, direction and meaning.
Hmmm.
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when i graduated college my life became a meaningless void. i realized that i had been doing that since i was 5 years old, and it all led up to this day where we put on a stupid outfit, shake some hands, get a peice of paper, and still have no idea what we're going to do with our lives, but now theres no one who even pretends to care.
but then, i was like, what do i want to do? and i did that.
so frejya. what do you want to do? do that. make that your goals, and your order and your purpose. because its way more awesome than school. and potentially less expensive.
They care about making money because they have accumulated student loans while they were "filling their need for order and purpose".
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